Expression. NOT!

why do we express? why do we even put ourselves out there? you know how children live? how they aren't afraid to act silly or even do stupid stuff. actually, they don't think anything of it. it's natural. but then all of a sudden there's this hush that comes upon our lives. this undefined rule, with undefined boundaries, but very defined consequences. there becomes a point in life when we acknowledge that we cannot be free. others are watching, and God forbid they would judge us.

but, why? why does it all of a sudden matter what others think? i mean, since when did other people's opinions confuse our thoughts, mute our personality, and consequently, define our lives? others will always think what they want to. no matter how much you change on the outside, you can not fool yourself into believing that you have it all together, even if you can fool others. i mean, you'll always find that one person who makes you feel bad about yourself. you'll find that one girl (with her sexy boyfriend) that will glare at you from top to bottom, making you believe you are at the bottom, of everything. it's a hole which we have made ourselves believe is never ending. although there are multiple people in life whom have had a significant role in this lie of a belief, we are the ones whom actually believe it is true. weird how lies make us into whom we are, but not whom we want to become... and what's even more weird is how we never question it. this is life, and that's how we live. but, if we base our self worth on others opinions, when do our desires come into play? and, when do we finally sit down and find out what we want or don't want to change? although others bring insight into our lives, we are the ones whom make our choices, even if we choose to be controlled by what others may think of us.