although i am extatic about what Christ did on the trip, i feel quite unable to talk about the events. seeing the little children on the streets, seeing the prostitution along the riverside and the dire need for love has struck a chord.
i get angry about the greed of my nation and the injustice of others. the need to please in other nations, and the need to be right in ours. we're all messed up. i get it. but, where is God in all of it? where is Christ.
if Christ and God is real i have to be able to ask God the tough questions like, "God, i know that you say, 'i know the desires of your heart.' but how can you care about the desires of people who beg for their next meal, for those who are discriminated against, and little children who don't know where they are going to sleep? it just doesn't make sense." and be able to beleive that he is still God after those questions are asked. not saying that they will all be answered but saying that there is a faith that when he said, "seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be opened to you" he meant it. anyways, a lot has been going through my head about this, and it's hard for me to all take in.
anyways, i'm doing well. i really am. it's been nice to be open with Christ about what's going on and feeling open about my feelings. it's also been streching in many ways.
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Wow lots of decisions and experiences. You are right God is definitely big enough for all your Qs. We just need to make sure we listen to Him for the answers. It's great to read about all the Lord is doing in your life Danae. Had tea with your mom today- they had a great time in FL with Kume and Dawite. Great to have them back.
Take care
Aunt Val
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