an exert from my journal

thank-You. thank-You for... everything. the beauty of Your love for me is beyond my comprehension. and although every ounce of my being desires to fathom the extent of Your love and passion to have me fully, body , mind and soul; i will never, never understand. for if You are love and every other person can only re-iderate and copy the essense of Your very being into an atribute so that we can feasibly relate to You in human form, then no I will never be able to comprehend Your love.

there are works of Your love all around us. showing that indeed this indescribable and umcomprehensible personality and entierty of Yourself is in fact true. So true that each person can go as indepth as they desire on major issues of life and still have to let some questoins go unanswered, in hopes that someone else will later find these answers. this is their hope for we all look for answers, believing that the answers will reviel truth. But, in fact when we do believe something from someone elses observation, we are believing something that we do not see, but trust completely that the other person has seen this.

Which leads me to wonder, how do we trust someone whom is not whole and whom does not have the true fullness that we are looking for? maybe it is that in fact we beleive that since we are all searching for a common ground that this is what bonds us to finding the truth.

but the problem is we are all seraching. we are searching and realating everything into human terms. things that cannot be realated, defined and rationalized the way we wanted. yet we worship these things convincing ourselves that if we would understnad a little bit more that this would in fact hold the answers.

still @ the end we do not have all the answers written down and simplified to our minds. which leads us to the questoin, what if this cannot be simplified? what if our lives and the lives around us are in fact part of something larger then what the eye can see, the ear can hear, the touch can feel and the mind can fathom? if that was the case, would we be able to swallow our pride and believe? believe in this truth that although we cannot fully understand, we can beleive. knowing within the depths of our being that this is truth and allowing our answers to point to that.