is this goodbye, or simply see you later?

Before i forget... here's my address in NZ

PO Box 47, Oxford, North Canterbury 7443, New Zealand

i am going to miss you all. i had a good time out here, and although it was short, it was well worth it.

i am emotionally, mentally and physically drained right now. but, i suppose that this is what life does to you. i want to live it to the fullest and yet become more drained in doing so. i think that a lot of it has to do with myself. i mean here i am living, trying to make me happy through what i do. but even more than that i try to portray the perfection that i so desire, to others in hope that they see me as what i want to be. and yet this is more draining then being whom you want to become. i hope that God will use this experience for me. i want to learn what He wants me to learn... but more than that i want to be vulnerable enough to experience it.